When there is too much change (and some more inbox wisdom) - Day 17 of 31 days of change.

After yesterday's positive post about new days, rainbows and blue skies, I have to admit that today I am once again very aware of how much I need to work on maintaining this positivity.

Especially at work. And especially with changes that are forced upon us in our everyday life.

I am working on embracing change this month.

That means that whilst I am welcoming some changes, I am learning to accept others.

I have been welcoming and accepting constant change at work, for a long time now. Changes in where I work, how I work, then not having a job last year.

Now working for a new company for just over a year, I find that before I have had even time to settle into a way of working, there have been constant changes here too. Now I have a new line manager who works very differently than my last one. I feel a little attacked at the moment and I want to walk away from this company. I find it difficult to change the way I work, and wonder how I can remain myself whilst also adapting to her way of working. Somehow I am struggling to accept what she says and find myself being defensive and argumentative.

There were angry tears after a phone call with her ended this afternoon, but I was glad I stood my ground and said what I did. I believe I do a good job. If I changed the way I worked to fit these targets and tick boxes, I couldn't achieve what I do. I was teetering on the edge of feeling bad and wrong, as I often used to, but I remembered just in time that I no longer have to blame myself. I remembered to be compassionate towards myself and I also felt compassion to my new line manager who is trying to do a good job too in her own way.

I was reminded of my unique gifts by this in-box wisdom received yesterday.

On this day of your life, Jan, I believe God wants you to know...

...that you are making a difference, whether you know it

or not. So have no doubt about that.

 

You did it again yesterday. The way you touched

someone's life just yesterday made a difference. And

you are always doing that, do you know that?

 

Yes, yes...your smile, your encouraging word, your

willingness to just be "present" with another, has

touched people in more ways than you realize.
 

I only tell you this today so that you never lose faith.

Faith in how life is moving through you -- and how

you are moving through life.