George Floyd

I have no words to add really. I am a white woman living in the UK and I can only imagine the rage, sadness and fear today after the killing of George Floyd yesterday. I am sad and angry sitting here and reading all of the posts and hearing the news. 

I read somewhere that "there is not more racism in America but there are more videos showing racism happening." 

Yesterday I also saw a video of a woman in Central Park being filmed by a Black man as she made a call to the police saying he was being threatening to her and her dog. This was after he had asked her to put her dog on a lead in an area where this was compulsory. The fear of families and individuals just stepping outside the door... I cannot imagine it and I am angry and ashamed. 

Again I am speechless and full of disbelief and sorrow that after all these years we are here again with another man killed by the police because he is black. We are calling for justice again. When will it end?

Amnesty International are calling on the US Congress to pass the PEACE Act to limit the use of deadly force which should only be used as a last resort. Whatever I can do I will do. I am so sorry. 

Lockdown is ending....

Hello. 

I'm re-reading Julia Cameron's "The Artist's Way", at the moment. Well I have been trying to read it and to complete the tasks and the morning pages since the beginning of the lockdown here in the UK. More about that later. 

I started this blog, whilst first reading and engaging with "The Artist's Way." My first post contained a quote from the book, which was about self-doubt, of which I had in tons. It's hard not to reflect on how far and how little I have come since that time. 

Today has been a tough day. That is all I will say. 

So anyway, I have been binge watching "Little Fires Everywhere." I read the book, written by Celeste Ng, last year; and will be reading it again. What a mesmerising and heart-wrenching adaptation it was. I didn't want it to end, not least because of the heartbreak. 

These particular lines really struck me...

“Sometimes you need to scorch everything to the ground, and start over. After the burning the soil is richer, and new things can grow. People are like that, too. They start over. They find a way.”  ― Celeste Ng

So I am not scorching anything here, it's ok. 

Just prior to the lockdown started, I was feeling as if everything had been scorched. There was still some things left, just a few, that were still to be burned. The time was getting close. 

Then came this time of global suffering and fear....this time of pause.... and this time of stillness. 

The wood pigeon has been calling most mornings and really all day long. 

It has been warm.....people have baked cakes and shared time that they may not otherwise have done from a distance and via this wonderful technology. In the safety of my space I feel gratitude and love. 

If I don't look too far outside, then I don't want to make anymore fires.....

I am a little afraid of the fires starting anyway. Let's not worry too much about that right now....as the quote says, "People are like that, too. They start over. They find a way."

I hope you are ok out there my blogging friends...keep well and I promise to visit you all soon.