ICAD #7 It's August Already!

More of my ICAD summer challenge creations. This past week or so it's been very difficult both to find the time to create my cards, AND it's been difficult to find any inspiration. The cards have felt like an effort but not so much that I would want to stop creating them! Or not until September anyway!

So it is August already! Last year in August I took part in Susannah Conway's The August Break, this year I really cannot take on any more. I'm very tempted to join in though....it's sooo delicious. A photo a day throughout August and a break from words on your blog. A real joy. It's not too late to join in if you fancy.

The last few Index Cards for July.
My new job was taking up all of my days. 

Our dream for the future had been taking up many of our nights.

ICAD 35 - 24/7/11

I'd been feeling very "watery" in the still moments, between the busy rush of days and the restless nights.

ICAD 36 - 25/7/11

Tears always with me but never falling.

ICAD 37 - 26/7/11

Up in the morning, and then bedtime again so quickly. Tired. Old familiar ways of being.

ICAD 38 - 27/7/11

Catching myself feeling self pity, I practiced turning my thoughts of lack, to thoughts of gratitude.

ICAD 39 - 28/7/11

Always tears close by.

ICAD 40 - 30/7/11

Our dreams so close we can almost touch them.

ICAD 41 - 31/7/11

Sadly today,  we found out that we cannot take our dreams any further right now. It is likely that this is a dream that will never come true for us.

I wonder now if the tears, and the lack of sleep, and the vague feeling of unease I have had for most of the process we've been going through, was just my inner voice trying to tell me that these dreams are not the ones for me. 

Maybe this is all for the best. 

Though it doesn't feel good right now and I am feeling hurt, upset and angry at the world, I know that part of me is breathing more easily. 

That was just not my path.