Talkative Tuesday - Warning - This post is not at all funny - no really.

"One loses many laughs by not laughing at oneself."

- Sara Jeannette Duncan

Well Tuesday is the day in Blogtoberfest, that I can ramble on about anything I like for a post.

Unfortunately like last week I am completely blank about what to "talk" about, and it is almost bedtime. I thought I'd write about the above quote that turned up on my bedside calendar on Sunday, as I have been pondering it ever since and how I really must try to laugh at my ridiculousness more often.

That quote is so true.

When I actually stop to think about it, I am the funniest person I know. There is truly much to laugh at.
 Regular readers may know that I am a very serious person indeed.

I do have a sense of humour but it often seems well buried by anxiety, and is just a little bit out there, a bit cynical and dark.

 I used to make jokes about myself as a way of overcoming the social anxiety I felt. However the feedback I got was that it indicated that I had low self-esteem and was putting myself down. I still seem to have something of a reputation for low confidence and self-esteem with people I knew from a few years ago. That was at the workplace where I became very depressed and almost disappeared. Maybe I overdid it with the self-deprecating humour.

It's so sad (and of course funny too and rather endearing) that I am unable to deliver a joke, as I always forget the punchline; but that when I try to make people laugh by laughing at myself and my foibles, they do not think it is at all funny.

I wonder if it is my style of delivery -  kind of miserable really.

I couldn't find a clip of Jack Dee which clearly demonstrated how similar I am to him (except of course I am not a famous and successful stand up comedian). So this one will have to do.....

On further thought my humour is more a cross between Jo Brand and Jack Dee (except I'm not at all funny).

Luckily the people that know me the best, often think I am funny. I do need to laugh at myself more and in a kinder way. On the yoga mat this is working quite well as I try to follow the teacher's poses - the whole room is full of people laughing at themselves. I suppose, like everything in life, there has to be a balance. Laughter should always be balanced with compassion and love. When we laugh at ourselves we are laughing at the human condition and our own unique contribution to the wonderfulness of this.

See how serious my post about laughing at myself was. I did warn you.