Another Challenge - please send some love and strength.

We are facing another challenge, dear friends.

It hit us hard and unexpectedly earlier this week.

I know that those blogging friends who pop in here, now and then, will send us some love and strength. It is not often I ask for help. I wish I could share the situation with you here, but it concerns someone else and is just far too personal to post somewhere so public.

Myself and Mr Stayinawake are holding on tight and I am preparing for a very rocky ride. While at the moment the situation is uncertain, things are likely to get very much worse, I cannot see how they will not.

On some days, since we heard the news, it feels very dark and hopeless. Then other times, I feel more hopeful and believe that it will all be ok.

Whatever does happen next, be it the worst case scenario or something less, we just have to take each step at a time, each moment at a time.

I am feeling winded yes, but tears are pricking the back of my eyes, not falling; I am still walking and talking; still doing my job; trying to continue on as normal. Not hiding under the covers and crumbling. Just waiting and prepared, for the next blow to strike; or for the release of hearing that it has all been a terrible mistake.

I know that whatever the outcome, it is here, I have to face it; and I am able to be strong for myself and for the other person who it directly affects. I feel it is almost as if, all of the work I have been doing over the past few years, has been to get me ready for this. I don't like this situation, but I am ready for it. I will not fall apart.

Yesterday this arrived in my inbox. I breathed it in gratefully. 

Nothing is too big for Spirit to handle! You cannot out-give, out-grow, or overwhelm Spirit.

Nothing is too much for Universal Principle to handle or respond to. Why? because Spirit is INFINITE.

Make your claim; work through the problem; confront the challenge. With God(the Universe) as your partner, you have EVERYthing you need to walk through ANYthing!

Today this. I breathed in some peaceful breaths. There is nothing I can do. It is out of my control. Fighting it will, right now, just make me weaker.

It is "what it is". This is not resignation. Making this statement moves you out of resistance, denial, and pain, into acceptance.

Accepting "what is" , you can move beyond the question of "Why?", and into the question, "Now What?" 

Now you can engage in your life by conscious choice.

 Just what I needed to read this week. Thank you Dr Petra.

I am going to keep blogging as much as possible. It will keep me focused on the things that are good for me whilst this horror is happening. Thank you for always being there my friends.