Staying Awake: August Beak Days 20

Monday, 27 August 2012

August Beak Days 20 - 25

I fixed my camera. Yay. Now it seems to have another fault which I cannot remedy at the moment. Hence all of these were taken with my Blackberry Phone and the quality is not so good, especially on the first two or three.

In addition, for the first part of the week my energy was so low that I am surprised I took any photos at all! Not to worry, this weekend is a long one and so I am making the most of the extra day to rest and recharge my very flat battery. Work is very busy, so I am trying not to think of the people I am supporting whilst at home, and just potter about the place, doing a little bit here and there if I feel so inclined.

As we have had a family birthday, visitors have been popping in to see the birthday creature. Whilst we are celebrating, we are all still very shell-shocked. Very thankful too of course. It is hard for me not to dwell on the whys and the wherefores, and the very nearlys. When I saw my sister yesterday I just wanted to talk, cry, be hugged and comforted by her; instead we skirted around the events, and she told me that it wasn't her way to pick over wounds once they had started to scab. As she left, eye contact was made between us and I looked longingly after her as she drove away with her husband. It felt a very lonely place, there standing at my front door waving. She is right, it is over, and that too; time to put the fear and anger aside, time to move on again.