Time off work time

Hello. It's time off work time. My second day today of annual leave. So why am I still working? 

So I'm sitting here this morning and wondering what to do with my time off work time. I'm feeling very tired and my brain feels very foggy indeed. 

Yesterday I read a blog post  by one of my old favourites who is still here on my reading list. Leo Babauta reminded me of what I can do when things feel scattered, and then this morning I read another blog that I used to like to visit where the writer had made a to do list and crossed thing off.  I do make lists, yes, every now and again. 

I tend to have my work list in my head most of the time. It's been so busy and feels relentless.

Once again here I am finding myself lamenting about the mess of my life outside work and hitting my leave still working and feeling exhausting. 

So making a list is what I need to do today, then a smaller list which will help me make the most of my time off work time. That is after I finish my work! 

It's very odd, usually I have lots of plans to travel here or there, or people I want to see and spend time with, but this time I haven't made any concrete plans. There is that feeling of concern and fear around the edges of my thinking, that I might "waste" my time off work time. That old familiar feeling of not knowing what to do with my time, and of course that feeling of dread for the end of the time coming too soon. 

Hopefully making a list will help... 

One thing that is at the top of my list, is coming here to write everyday. Even if it is just a post like yesterday with a song or a link to an interesting article.

As I was sitting here this morning, a thought crossed my mind which was "my life these days, is much further away from "me", than it ever has been before." That is something to give time to thinking about and putting right during this time off work time. 

I look forward to reconnecting with myself here and other places. The sound of a waterfall I visited in August 2019 reminds me of ways to do this.