Another August Day Ending!

August seems to be flying by and as for the break aspect, well I think that my break will come in another month or two. The years keep on coming and going too don't they? These photos were taken on my son's birthday last Wednesday. As we stood and gazed at the beautiful sky together, taking photographs and pausing for a moment, I felt that all too familiar feeling creeping over me. You know the one, the one that longs for the past just a teensy bit and the one that tinges the edges of happiness with just a hint of sadness. It's the one that makes you cry at weddings too, or at the happy endings in a film. You know the one!

I wrote in my morning pages today, about finally feeling that I am starting to live more in the present moment. So the August days flying by(and the years), are not causing me any anguish or resentment really. Life is fuller than it was, I am making it so, and the fear is lessened. Time is short, so these days I fill it up with good things, rather than bemoaning this fact. I am acknowledging the darkness and the light. I am practicing acceptance. I am a beginner in this please note, so it takes practice. I think it always will.

Julia Cameron in "The Artist's Way" writes:

It is the inner commitment to be true to ourselves and follow our dreams that triggers the support of the universe. While we are ambivalent the universe will seem to us also to be ambivalent and erratic. The flow through our lives will be characterized by spurts of abundance and long spells of drought, when our supply dwindles to a mere trickle.

If we look back at the times when the world seemed to be a capricious and untrustworthy place, we will see that we were ourselves ambivalent and conflicted in our goals and behaviours. Once we trigger an internal yes by affirming our truest goals and desires, the universe mirrors that yes and expands it.

There is a path for each of us. When we are on our right path, we have a surefootedness. We know the next right action - although not necessarily what is just around the bend. By trusting, we learn to trust.