The Future Lies This Way

Signpost Grizedale Forest - March 2010

Two posts in one day! Reflecting that there is so much going on for me right now. Both internally and externally. An exciting possibility is on the horizon and I also had something of a breakthrough yesterday. It felt as if my heart took wings! I am still reeling from the wonder of it!

It has a bit to do with how well I know the darkness. Here is my shadow about a year ago with a great big stone lodged in her tummy! I've been getting very friendly with her lately but I only realised why just yesterday!

Grizedale Forest - April 2010

At the end of my Yoga session today we did a relaxation exercise, where we had to count backwards from 100 on the in-breath, then say the word relax or let go on the out-breath. Our teacher reassured us that if we lost count, not to worry, just to go back to 100, no-one else would know. I suddenly noticed how tightly I was holding on to the count for fear of losing my place. I was watching myself holding on so tight and once I noticed this, was able just for a moment of two, let go and relax; knowing something/someone within me was taking care of it all.

I know how to go forward, I think, now I just have to get started. It seems like a mammoth task but it's really not at all. It's very simple indeed. So all I have to do now is to remember how simple it all is. To trust. To let go. To relax.

The future may lie this way, or it may lie this way but what I do know is that it certainly lies this way:

May 2011

Though I've read this quote many times before, I only really understood it in my heart yesterday:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”  

- Marrianne Williamson